Trueness Inside and Out is What Counts

For those that don't mind a bit of rambling~

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It's important to reflect.

I've done this a lot as a mom and wife but it hasn't been until

recently that I've started to use the tool of reflection to how I see

the outside world.

I've lived in a state of giving chances and accepting others.

Of which I believe is still a great way to live but seeing the whole 

picture alongside of that is equally important. 

I'm a mom of 4 beautiful children ranging from 19 to 11.

I will soon celebrate 20 sweet years with an amazing man.

I've moved about 28 times in my life.

I've live in 4 states and 2 countries.

I've served my country in the USAAR.

I've made many "friends" along the way but have only had a handful

of the truest of friends.

I experienced many divorces as a child and still managed to be 

somewhat normal:)

I grew up fast, matured early, and never really desired the 

party life after high school. 

I've had a place in my heart for God my whole life but didn't 

start living for Him until I was 18.

Yep, I am uniquely me.

I've learned a lot in my days and still have a lot to learn.

 I have always had a respect for those who are 

true to who they are and don't change because they are

around different people of different beliefs or....

and this is a biggie

that don't change because the door is closed to outside eyes.

Respect for people who change like this drops to a 

big fat 0!

Honestly, they don't care either, unless it will benefit 

them in some way.

It's frustrating to watch those that can't see it or maybe refuse.

It doesn't matter if you're a movie star, sport super freak, if you are

a preacher, worship leader, or even the president.

Titles mean nothing to WHO you are.

Who you "truly" are is what counts.

You could be able to quote anything in the bible but if you can't truly

live it...well, it doesn't really matter.

People like this can ruin others.

I'm not at all perfect and I make so many mistakes

but there is one trait I have. 

It's a trait I love.

A trait that has its high and lows.

Kindness

I can't say that I am always, 100% kind but my intentions 

are always to not hurt...

even to those that hurt me or have hurt my family.

We all were created by a loving father and because of this

we should all be kind to each other.

Humanly decent

My "giving chances" part of me tries to tell me that the people

who are not true or humanly decent to ALL just might not realize

what they are really doing.

SO, here's your sign.

Look around in the eyes of the people you see.

Take the mirror off the wall that only shows your good side.

Get OUTSIDE your own self and ideas and 

for goodness sake

stop apologizing with a BUT.

For so many years I've tried to understand why some people

can't logically see the true ugliness that others are giving or that they

themselves dish out.

This year I have a goal.

Stop trying to understand.

I usually look deep into the actions of others and the whole story.

On the flip side, sometimes there is no reason at all except maybe

selfish ambition.

That's when I find myself saying, 

"It's just not logical."

For these situations, my efforts of understanding needs to stop.

There is no explaining or understanding.

I've had a sweet life of ups and downs.

I have lots of bad experiences in my past and still choose to trust God.

Trust my kids to Him and my marriage to Him.

I trust Him when my life is upside down or right side up.

I've come to a state of mind that He has a great plan for my life.

I'm privileged to live it and honored to know when I leave this life that

I will get to see His glorious face.

My greatest heartaches 

are seeing my family and friends, the ones I love, in pain.

I deeply wish I could give them my awareness of 

serving at the pleasure of Our Lord.

But I know that the journey of contentment was and still is my personal journey to travel.

Life really is such a sweet journey.

This journey can be joyous, even in hard times, 

if only we would open our hearts and become more aware of it all.

*That's your unwind today, open up and be aware.