In the beginning of my post I stated that I was going to be brutally honest. I don't really want to be today b/c it isn't a fun, sweet, hearty, cheery, up beat thing I have to say. I'm frustrated with my love. I love him with all my being but right now I'm so very frustrated with him. I have been trying to be patient b/c he is under tremendous stress both at work and here at home with getting our big project done quickly. I'm trying to be patient..really I am...but I guess I just saw last night that my patience might be not so good. Maybe sometimes we need people to tell us.."Hey man...this ain't right! Things aren't that bad...Major and majors and leave the minor behind". Yeah, I kind of said most of those things last night to my hubby. My very strong head, strong willed hubby. It wasn't received well:( It's OK though. I been married to this man for 15 years. I told him that maybe...maybe if he has been asking for guidance and I am telling him something about that specific thing that I can see clearly which could be fix...that maybe it is from God. So, being married for 15 years...as I said...has it's advantages. I know that usually..not always...but usually my very strong willed, head strong husband will think about an argument we have and maybe try to act upon it. Not that I'm right every time. It's like planting a seed. I'm not someone who argues. I don't like fighting. I think belittling someone is for cowards but getting your point across and then letting it sit in the minds of those you spoke it to, in my opinion, is the best way to get people to understand what your trying to explain.
Anyway, I'm really all out of sorts today on what to do and say. He I'm sure is over it:) He called earlier and asked if I wanted to play in a co-ed softball game with him:) yeah-that sounds like fun. Tonight I have soccer practice for 2 kids and so I'm trying to get dinner ready. The house which is cause for such frustration to him is picked up and I will try to do a little more but I've come to the point where I will never get the perfect house with 4 kids. I will not fix the perfect meal and have everything picked up and put away and feeling oh so fresh:) Don't get me wrong...I'm madly in love with this man...He loves his family...he would do anything for us. It's just sometimes he gets focused on the wrong goal in my opinion. I do love him with all I have even through frustrating times. That's me being real.
OK, let me get on a different subject. I am joining the YMCA with the kids! I've quit my ladies workout group and am missing my morning workouts already (I've only missed 1.5 days,lol).
I hope 1 or 2 weeks off my workouts won't mess me up :/ They are supposed to have some cool teen workout room and rock wall. I hear it's super cool! I'll be spending a lot of time there, hopefully:) I will work my school around the Y:) I hope to ignite a fire in the oldest girls attitude towards exercise.
Well, I better get going to dinner. I hope tonight is a better night....
Anyway, I'm really all out of sorts today on what to do and say. He I'm sure is over it:) He called earlier and asked if I wanted to play in a co-ed softball game with him:) yeah-that sounds like fun. Tonight I have soccer practice for 2 kids and so I'm trying to get dinner ready. The house which is cause for such frustration to him is picked up and I will try to do a little more but I've come to the point where I will never get the perfect house with 4 kids. I will not fix the perfect meal and have everything picked up and put away and feeling oh so fresh:) Don't get me wrong...I'm madly in love with this man...He loves his family...he would do anything for us. It's just sometimes he gets focused on the wrong goal in my opinion. I do love him with all I have even through frustrating times. That's me being real.
OK, let me get on a different subject. I am joining the YMCA with the kids! I've quit my ladies workout group and am missing my morning workouts already (I've only missed 1.5 days,lol).
I hope 1 or 2 weeks off my workouts won't mess me up :/ They are supposed to have some cool teen workout room and rock wall. I hear it's super cool! I'll be spending a lot of time there, hopefully:) I will work my school around the Y:) I hope to ignite a fire in the oldest girls attitude towards exercise.
Well, I better get going to dinner. I hope tonight is a better night....
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